I’m re-writing this post for the third time. What I want to convey is so fundamental, and what keeps coming out is so insipid.
I want to talk about life. About joy. About what I’m learning about life and how everyone experiences it differently.
I love life. Even when I’m in an unpleasant situation, life itself – my existence on this glorious planet – is an experience I wouldn’t want to miss. I love the earth beyond what words can describe. She and her beings – from the trees and bugs to the four elements – nourish my soul; hold me when I’m hurting, rejoice with me in the form of flowers, sunsets and birdsong; supply endless wonder in the veins of a leaf or the endless flow of water over stones.
I have had my share of problems – a difficult puberty, depression, an abusive marriage, being a single mom. There were times when I questioned why I was here. But three things I have always known to be true get me through.
- This is temporary. Things will change. And I will be SO happy when this is over!
- This is all happening for a reason.
- I am not in this alone. My guides and angels are there for me.
All of these knowings have always proven to be true for me.
A fourth thing that I know to be fundamentally true for me is that life is good; feeling good and enjoying life is the norm, interspersed with short periods of unpleasant or difficult situations.
But my ex-husband introduced me to a very different worldview. It took me most of the five years of our relationship to figure out how he saw life. Among many others, these things were true for him:
- Only my point of view is right. Every other is wrong.
- There is no god. You are alone and have only yourself to rely on.
- Life is a miserable struggle, and you live for the few moments of happiness.
What I have come to realize in talking with some people who have become very dear to me, is that viewing life as a struggle, or as unpleasant, is not that unusual. Life, or living in a body, is painful enough that these beautiful, loving souls contemplate whether remaining here is worthwhile.
These are people with love and compassion for others; they are on a spiritual path; they are highly intelligent with amazing insights that are sometimes jaw-dropping to hear. To talk to them in the normal course of events, you would never know what was happening, but it’s always there, ever-present in the background; that life is very difficult and painful.
And I was asked this question last week: how does one make the shift from seeing life as fundamentally horrible to seeing life as good?
I have to admit – I have no idea. I can’t go there. I cannot put myself into those shoes, but I am strongly inspired to help.
And everything that I have come across in days since then has pointed me to do so: A lesson from A Course In Miracles; my connection with Slug; a meditation; a video on youtube; a Facebook Meme from 3 years ago that popped up in my news feed – they all point to the possibility of a shift in consciousness that can help to change perception and alleviate suffering.
I have to admit that I’m flying by the seat of my pants here. I have no idea what’s going to happen. To mangle a quote from the movie Evolution: I don’t have time to pretend I know what I’m doing.
I just know that this feels right; it’s something I feel inspired to do.
I’m not running the show; I’m following my gut. All I know is that I will be asking Nature for help with this, channeling messages this week to pass on during the call.
It is about creating a circle of women to hold sacred space for anyone who desires healing. (Like any of us don’t need healing on some level.)
I’m simply trusting Source Energy and Nature to guide my actions.
At this point, I’m not sure if we’ll be on a conference line or using zoom. I’ll figure it out, though.
If you’re inspired to join me, the call will be this coming Saturday at 11 am EST for about an hour.
I’ll be sending out emails with call-in information to those of you who have signed up on my website, so if you’re already on the list, be on the lookout.
If you are not yet on my mailing list, you can sign up here http://bit.ly/2vMwXHa .
With the moon waning and the Solstice window of transformation ramping up, this is a perfect time to release the old and welcome a new way of being.
I hope you can join me!